I think I came out of the womb wanting to change the world, to have impact for the better. It’s innate to my being, and the circumstances of my childhood only strengthened that part of me that wanted to see things be better for people on Earth.
I remember seeing a TV ad when I was a kid that showed Goldie Hawn (I think it was her) with some black babies and she was telling people they could donate $2 a month or something to feed one starving child in Africa. I understood the intention but it never sat right with me. Even as a kid I was wondering “Why are they starving in the first place?”
I understand a lot more now in terms of systemic global issues but of course the world is still a mystery for the most part. What I do understand is that while charity has its place, the issues that face humanity are deeply complex and intertwined and require solutions that take everything and everyone into account. What is required in my view is something much more radical than feeding starving children. We need to address the roots of the issues. I also understand that while there are immense disparities and suffering in this world, along with immense wonder and beauty, we are not really divided into “haves” and “have-nots.” In my view, we are all in this mess and in the beauty together. Some of us have a lot more leverage and more comfort and privilege than others and have more impact (for better or worse) or can pretend to distance ourselves if we choose but no one is immune to the suffering of the planet and of humanity. And every one of us can tap into the beauty and wonder wherever we are. And though we might have a comfortable life or we might find ourselves in dire circumstances none of us is really separate from the world at large, though we may be blind to our relationship to it.
With this insight I have wanted to find a path toward making a difference that is not about charity but is based in an acknowledgment of our interdependence with all of life. As a fellow midwife who has done extensive international work once said to me: "All positive change happens through relationship."
I am happy to report that I have been finding that path in my experience at ACAM and the relationships and collaborations being cultivated there.
ACAM, CONCEPCION CHIQUIRICHAPA
I came here briefly in 2004, to this hidden mountain town of Concepcion Chiriquirichapa, to meet and interview midwives for a research project I wanted to do about midwifery and herbal medicine in Guatemala. That project turned into a book called Voices of Maya Midwives (Lulu press, 2005.) In the process I gained a deep awe and respect for the women I interviewed. I had a dream at that time of coming back here to work side by side with them to learn and share as fellow midwives. The birth center was under construction at that time.
Fast-forward to 2015 and here I am living that dream. When I reflect on the meaning of being here, it’s so much deeper than a cool exotic opportunity. It’s about leadership, empowerment of women, vision for a better world, solidarity and sisterhood--and creating bridges across cultural, linguistic, national, and economic divides. It’s about honoring the interdependence of all beings and finding my way back to a sense of wholeness.
|L to R: Azucena, Antonina, and Imelda at midwives meeting|
Two women, Antonina, and Azucena, have been the driving force behind this impressive maternal health and cultural renewal project. A couple of weeks ago I organized a field trip that helped me to see these two women and Antonina’s daughter, Imelda, in a whole new light and only deepened my appreciation of each of them.
The following are excerpts from my “report from the field for my colleagues at the BIrth Institute:
Essence and I went this week with Antonina, Azucena, and Imelda (with Andres, Antonina’s husband, driving) on a two day field trip. We went first to Huehuetenango to visit Casa Materna, which is a maternity waiting home next to the only hospital in the department. Wow. There are people in that area that are up to 13 hours from any hospital.
We saw where they keep the women who have high risk pregnancies or simply live very far from the hospital in the special maternity home for 5 or more days on average. They do not give birth there but they go to the hospital when they are 4 centimeters. They have nurses and doctors on staff at the waiting home but no midwives. We thought we would go to the hospital and see some births since they normally do about 50 deliveries a day there. But for some reason there were no births that day.
The midwives were told by the Casa Materna Staff that they should just say they are visitors at the hospital (I did have permission from the higher-ups to enter the hospital before we even traveled there) because if the doctors there knew they are midwives they would not let them in the door. We as foreigners would not have that issue. So, they did go in with us and as far I as I understand it was the first time any of them had the opportunity to be inside a hospital.
The nurse in the delivery room (who didn’t have much to do since there were no patients) kind of gave us a tour and then started asking the midwives questions. The midwives ignored the warning about concealing their identity since we were already there.
“And who owns it?” she asked.
“We do,” Antonina said with her chin a little higher.
“And what if you need an I.V.?”
“We do it.” (note from me: True. I've seen it twice.)
“We do that too.” (note from me: While it's true that they have the capacity to do sutures, they have their own effective way of dealing with tears, which has to do with tightly wrapping the women's hips in a "faja" after birth and doing a special vaginal steam bath in the temascal. That's a whole other subject.)
And the conversation went on with the nurse about how the place is run and what they do.
I loved watching the midwives talk about themselves and their work. They sure do hold their heads high. It is clear from this and the other experiences we had that they are damn proud that the birth center belongs to them and that they are the ones who decide who works here and how decisions are made and what the care protocols are.
The next day we were taken by the folks from PCI, the organization that runs the waiting home, to visit a group of midwives in Todos Santos, a totally quaint little town way high up in the mountains. Pretty remote. We were invited to go and the agenda was pretty loose. I honestly wasn’t even totally clear what my intentions were except that it seemed like a good idea and the midwives were into it.
|Midwives of Todos Santos, Essence and me in the middle.|
|Antonina speaking to one of the Todos Santos midwives|
So when we arrived about 30 midwives showed up. We did some brief introductions as we sat in a huge circle and as soon as I mentioned plant medicine someone interrupted me and wanted to know what plants I used for labor. It was a bit awkward as I wasn’t prepared to just start talking about specifics but that was what they all seemed to want. We ended up going around and each of us sharing some of our favorite plants to use. I used examples of herbs I have used for my kids. When Azucena and Antonina started talking the questions started firing and they kind of became the center stage. Azucena talked about her vision of reclaiming the medicinal knowledge of the ancestors and how it would be good for them all to get together again and to bring live plants so they would know specifically what they are talking about. At one point I turned my head and saw that half the room was suddenly empty. Where did everyone go? I asked Essence. Then I heard someone say they went to look for plants. We found them outside gathering plants from the roadside to show the others what they were talking about. They suddenly became so animated and energized!
|Imelda, Antonina's daughter, speaking to the midwives|
These ladies are so inspirational and command such a presence no matter who they are talking to. Essence and I have both grown deeply fond of them and are so inspired, impressed and humbled by who they are and how they show up for life.
|Azucena speaking passionately about plant medicines|
|Judy Luce and ACAM midwives at the first meeting in 1999|
|Essence, me, and Todos Santos midwives|
If you want to learn more about ACAM and their story, check out the very beautiful and moving video on their website: http://www.mayamidwifery.org/blog/